he's lazy.

so am i.

i am trying, though.
i did some laundry and some dishes.
i should cook tonight, but i am still
digesting last night's dinner. ::blech::

the wonderful hubby invited people over this weekend.
and my house is less than "home-y" right now.
so i am scrambling
trying to make sense of all of the little pieces
that have made their way into our homes over the years.

i need to find my "style" sense, i think.
i like what i like, and unfortunately,
i like a lot of different things.

now i have to figure out how to make them fit.

on beer pong.

halloween did not disappoint this year.
everyone came to my neighborhood to
trick or treat:
there was a zebra

and the kool-aid man

and the clan from the batman comics
harley quinn, joker, batman, robin...and poison ivy.

here's one of just the nephews and niece


i went to a co-worker's party later that night.
turns out, i'm pretty good at beer pong.

i met up with achmed.
you know-

the dead terrorist
and had a few shots to make sure
i would remember my night
well into sunday morning...


this old girl just aint what she used to be-
but it sure was fun pretending i could hang!

on mute.

i don't pick up my camera as much anymore
and it shows.

i need to prioritize
that is my issue.

i'm thinking i need to be more selfish
it sounds horrrible
but i feel myself slipping away
the more i let my hobbies slide.

happy saturday.
i'm headed into work
but you can bet i will be
obsessing about my paints and inks and pictures.
and my CAMERA.

xoxo

shut.up.

i can't believe i haven't updated in so long.
who am i kidding?
yes i can
i'd like to say i've been playing in the sun.

but i really haven't.

life has been confusing and overwhelming.
i sometimes have to remember that i am happy
to be off all those meds ...
but there are times when i am so stuck in emotional mud
that its all i can do to get to tomorrow.
it's all about letting someone down.
always, someone is going to be let down-
most times it's me.
and i guess that's okay
because that's what i do to not have the guilt.

i am not one that deals well with change
if i know what to expect i know how i will deal
ya know?
the past few weeks my schedule has been pretty much
here and there and everywhere and i am not liking it.
i do not deal well with change.

school.
i am waiting to hear if this VA thing will go through.
i may get to go back to school spring 2010...
and it's another thing that gets me all worked up.
i want to do it.
i am excited to go.
i LOVE school supplies.
but i am 33 freaking years old.
& i kinda feel like
"what's the point?".

i dont deal well with change.

33 is the year for me.

saturday was my 33rd.

i had family over.
i had cake.
i had two, actually.


i am thinking this year holds
a lot of promise
and i am ready to rock it.

on living overseas.

see, the thing about living in new countries is
you get used to having wonderful new food addictions.

and then you leave.

today i was trying to make jam cookies.



i gave it a pretty good go.
but
they don't taste like the jam cookies
we were in love with in australia.

the kids are as disappointed as i am.
:(

i want to live in yesterday.

got the heck out of dodge
day trip to the 325 is always good.
stopped in to have a look-see at the
american british antiques shop...
the kids din't know what to make of these...

made me feel like *i* was an antique...

loved the downtown streets...
so many photo ops...

NEVER enough time...


so far sunday is a drag.
i have things planned...
but once again i am left to
deal with the stress of living
too close to the fire.